I have gotten into the whole adult colouring-in book thing.
I try everything I possibly can to try to still my beautiful, and restless mind.
I do anything to try to create a sense of peace, in my insignificant little life.
I try to sleep before midnight when I can, as allegedly, the hours of sleep you get before midnight count as double.
And hey, I am at an age where beauty sleep REALLY counts.
I take multi-vitamins.
I eat un-processed foods where I can.
I try to avoid preservatives, junk food, and too much caffeine.
Caffeine, in addition to life in general, gives me anxiety.
I’m a stupidly, sensitive soul.
I feel everything deeply.
I frequent the gym daily, in attempt to release those endorphins which make us feel so much better.
I try to think positively whenever I feel the darkness overtaking my thoughts, and attempting to hold me hostage, and drag me kicking and screaming into a downward spiral.
I drink the juice of half a lemon in water each morning before I do anything else.
It’s meant to alkaline your digestive system.
I do oil-pulling every morning.
Which is where you put a teaspoon of coconut oil in your mouth, and swish it around for 20 minutes like a mouthwash.
It’s supposed to remove toxins from your body, bacteria from your mouth, and whiten your teeth in the process.
I try to create a routine for myself.
I personally thrive on routine.
I like it.
And I attempt to surround myself with people who support me.
Those that are my advocates.
Who like me, for me.
Because I’m all about whatever it takes to get you to where you need to go…
But back to that colouring-in book.
It’s meant to help you practice “mindfulness”.
What exactly is mindfulness?
According to Wikipedia:
“Mindfulness is the intentional, accepting and non-judgemental focus of one’s attention on the emotions, thoughts and sensations occurring in the present moment.”
In layman terms – it’s being present.
Living in the moment.
Not in the past.
Which is a state of regret.
Not in the future.
Which is a state of fear.
It’s also about being mindful.
And what is the definition of being mindful?
The dictionary definition is:
“Attentive, aware, or careful.”
And it got me thinking about us human beings.
About those three things that the definition of being “mindful” are.
Are you attentive to what surrounds you?
Are you paying attention to what you have in your life? Do you give your attention to what matters? Are you giving your full attention to what is in front of you? Is your attention directed towards what really matters?
Are you aware of the things surrounding you?
Are you conscious to what is going on for you? How have you actively participated in creating the things that you are surrounded by? Are you aware that you are always sending out a powerful current into the universe? Are you aware of the energy that you possess? Of the immense power that has a ripple effect on everything else? Of the way that that every single action, has a reaction?
Are you careful of what you do?
How the way you behave, and choose to act, affects those surrounding you? Are you careful in the way you present yourself to other people? Are you careful about the way that you care for yourself? Are you careful to be considerate of others? Or are you only considering yourself? Are you careful in the knowledge that you are a mirror? That your own image is reflected back through the eyes of others? What is it that you see?
Lately, I have become completely enamoured by the late philosopher, Allan Watts.
He’s the one person, who if he were still with us, would be on my list of those I’d have at a dinner party.
Him, and Elizabeth Gilbert.
But that’s a whole other post…
I googled a bunch of quotes from him as I wrote this article.
And the one that has struck a chord with me is this:
“For unless one is able to fully live in the present, the future is a hoax. There is no point whatever in making plans for a future which you will never able to enjoy. When plans mature, you will still be living for some future behind. You will be never, never be able to sit back with full contentment and say, “Now I’ve arrived”. Your entire education has deprived you of this capacity because it was preparing you for the future, instead of showing you how to be alive now”.
It’s that stupid “what if?” trap.
The “I’ll be happy when…” crap that we go on with.
Stop fucking everyone around.
That “mindfulness colouring book” has taught me quite a lot.
It’s taught me to live in the “now”.
To concentrate on the task at hand.
To pay attention to the “detail”.
And the result of being present, being mindful, and being “in the now”?
I personally feel as though I have created something beautiful.
And that’s what we should all feel.
That our presence, adds beauty to what is.
Because it does.
So stop living in the past.
In an endless loop of regret.
Stop living in the future.
In a perpetual state of fear.
Understand that all we have, is this very moment.
And start being present in the now.
It’s all about being mindful of the “what is”.
Because there IS nothing else.
And “what is”?
It’s different and unique for all of us.
But trust me, it’s beautiful.
It’s all beautiful.